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[ Soon Joe promises them. Only a few more weeks before he found out which art schools had accepted him. And he was okay with them being together without him.

Nothing could change how much they loved each other. Since he had permission Booker sat up, pulled Nicky in close and kissed him deeply while Joe watched. ]

I can't wait for another night like Malta. Which is why I'm going to get a cold shower now before I start thinking too much about it and let you two talk.

[ Booker blew a kiss to Joe as he got up and got his things together. Like Nicky he took off his shirt before he left for the shower but he made sure Nicky was looking at him when he did it.

But he wouldn't be long in the shower. Booker didn't want to miss the little time together they did have. ]

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[Joe grinned at the sound Nicky made when Booker kissed him, but Nicky was a little too preoccupied to notice. Thankfully, he was still smiling when Booker let him go in favor of stripping off his shirt before leaving.

If he paused to listen, Booker might have heard a very small groan of frustration.

By the time that Booker had returned, however, the conversation had gone back to the topic of school. Nicky was listening with rapt attention as Joe explained the program that he wanted to get into, looking every bit as excited as Joe for the prospect. So much so in fact that as soon as the door closed, Nicky scooted over on the bed so that Booker could sit back down.]

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[ Booker rubbed his hair with the towel then combed it with his fingers. He put on boxers but that was it.

He sat down next to Nicky and rested his head on his shoulder. They both looked so happy. Booker had already heard all about the program so none of this was new information to him.

It was nice to bask in the presence of the two people he loved most in the world. They both looked so happy. Really the only thing missing was Joe's physical presence. Once they had that things would be perfect. ]

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[Well, Joe's presence and maybe something a little larger than a twin sized bed. He and Booker could cram into it together, but they wouldn't be able too for much longer if Booker kept up with his boxing. Already his shoulders were starting to fill out, his body starting to put muscle onto the frame it was almost finished building.

Adding Joe would be impossible.

They chatted for a while yet until Joe's alarm went off, signaling that his afternoon interview was half an hour away.]

You should go. I wish you luck, but you do not need it. You are amazing and do not forget that.

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[ They'd make it work. Booker would just sleep on top of them both if that's what it took or make a pillow fort on the floor and curl up there. Booker wanted them all together. ]

And don't forget we love you.

[ Joe smiled softly and said he loved them too then he was gone. Booker closed the laptop, set it on the floor, and then curled around Nicky. ]

Fuck, it was so good to see him.

[ He sighed happily. Sure, he missed him but Joe was really trying hard to get to them. ]

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It was.

[He sighed, deflating a little now that the call was over and one of his love's was once again cut off from him. He hated it. Hated it even more knowing that he'd have to leave Booker at the train station the following day.

Making a face, he wiggled back until there was enough room for him to lay down, wrapping his arms around the larger boy as he did so.]

I miss him. I will miss you. I don't want to go tomorrow...

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I'll get a job around campus and send you money so you can take the train every weekend.

[ It wouldn't be a lot of time to spend together but it would be something. Booker didn't want Nicky spending all that money but it was only here they could be together without Nicky's family seeing them. ]

And depending on where Joe ends up maybe you can go live with him and I'll come visit. We'll find a way to be together.

[ He smiled encouragingly. ]

What is it you said? It's destiny? We're supposed to find each other? Well, we're supposed to find a way to live together too. It just might take time.

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Destiny, yes.

[He smiled, leaning in to brush a kiss against Booker's skin before settling back. He loved that he was allowed to touch now....but also still nervous about getting it wrong.

Nicky was nothing if not determined to be fantastic at whatever he chose to do.]

I wonder what the girls are up to. Nile is in basic, but I hope Andy and Quynh are doing alright without her.

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You can always text them. They'll respond when they can.

[ He ran his fingers through Nicky's hair while he breathed a soft sigh of contentment. Nicky could kiss his skin as much as he liked. ]

That's the beauty of modern technology. We can always have a conversation. It just takes place across different timezones.

[ Booker looked around for where he left his phone but it was out of easy reach and he didn't want to leave Nicky's arms. ]

At least we'll be roughly the same, just a few hours difference.

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I know. I do text them. Andy and I were talking about a new baklava recipe I found just yesterday. But there is difference between seeing their words on a screen and hear their words from their lips.

[And speaking of their lips, Nicky had a brief thought and he arched a brow.]

If we are officially dating now, which we are, does that mean that Andy has to stop kissing me whenever she wants?

[Because she'd be unhappy with that. She liked making out but didn't always like taking it any further. Nicky was perfect because he loved kissing, but never pushed.]

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That's between you and Andy. I know you're not sleeping with her so it doesn't bother me.

[ Again, it's the little voice in the back of Booker's head that didn't like it. But he knew to ignore the voice. It was doubt and bitterness and mental scars that came from his father's emotional abuse.

Without therapy it would ruin this beautiful thing he had found with Nicky and Joe. Probably would've ruined all of his friendships, honestly. Thank God he told his mom how bad it got one day. ]

And it's Andy, you know? She needs the most love out of all of us.

[ They all kissed Andy, after all. ]

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[He smirked, shaking his head a little before nuzzling in against Booker's chest.]

No, there is no sex. In fact, I'm pretty sure that even if she wanted it, there couldn't be.

[He shrugged, still not lifting his head, clearly a little embarrassed, but still always willing to tell Booker and Joe everything.]

For as energetic as she is, I've never responded to her the same way I do to just one of your looks... I wouldn't mind, by the way. If you or Joe decided to share yourselves with Andy. Or Quynh and Nile either, for that matter. I know you love me and I know that they love me, too. I don't see why loving them means that you love me any less. After all, I love them, too.

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[ He rested his chin on top of Nicky's head. ]

I don't know right now if that's what I want. I love them too but since that night in Malta all I think about is you and Joe.

[ Booker had slept with Andy before. Not Quynh because she wasn't attracted to him like that but he and Andy had fooled around before he fooled around with Joe. ]

Maybe if we're all together I'll feel it but you've got me by the libido and it's not letting go.

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[He smiled, the expression still on his lips as he pressed them against Booker's chest again.]

Good. Because that night is all I can think about, either.

[But they'd already said that they weren't fooling around tonight, right? He groaned, closing his eyes as he thunked his forehead against his boyfriend's chest.]

Please tell me that the mind does, eventually, stop thinking only about sex once it gets used to the idea?

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I kept waiting for you to tell us to stop. I kept thinking it couldn't be real. I had to be dreaming. No way could two beautiful men be fucking me.

[ Booker rolled them both until Nicky was under him on the bed. He tangled their legs together and kissed him slowly, gently licking into his mouth. ]

But it was very real. Of course I want more of you two and it's all I can think about. That night changed my life, Nicky.

[ He rested his forehead against Nicky's so he could stare in his eyes which looked blue and green and reminded him of the ocean around Malta. ]

How can I love this fiercely? We're pretty much kids, you know? Not even through University and I just want to spend the rest of my life with you and Joe.

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[Instead of reassuring him that his libido would calm down over time, Booker instead did the exact opposite. And Nicky loved it. He groaned as he found himself trapped under the other boy, his hands going up to Booker's sides. Not to push him away, but to pull him closer so that he could run his lips along his collarbone.]

I never even thought about asking you to stop, Sebastien. Not once. I don't really want you to stop now, either, even though we just had a conversation about how it would probably be a bad idea to do more than kiss tonight.

[His eyes darkened as he shifted upwards to kiss Booker. It wasn't shy, it wasn't quick, and it certainly wasn't chaste. It was Malta's heat against their skin and all of Andy's training rolled into one package.]

Your touch sets me on fire, but that is nothing to how my heart beats for you. I love you. I would give you everything if only you were to ask it of me.

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Nicky... that was before we talked to Joe.

[ Booker very deliberately rolled his hips down against Nicky's grinding shamelessly. There's so little clothes between them. ]

We can fool around without Joe. He said so. Now that we've got his permission we could keep going. If you are okay with that.

[ After a kiss like that what else would be on Booker's mind? They could just get off rubbing against each other or maybe trade hand jobs. Booker was kind of thinking about Nicky blowing him again.

For practice. ]

Nicky, you love me. That is everything.

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[Nicky liked practicing.

Booker rolled their hips together and Nicky gasped, his eyes fluttering shut as he relished the sensation. He hadn't felt so much as his own hand since Malta and he missed it. Not the pleasure or the intensity, but the connection.

He looked into Booker's eyes and felt his body stir.]

I do love you. And I still want to..use my mouth on you, if you'd like that? I want to get better at it.

[He'd set a goal for himself and Nicolo di Genova was a man who always met his goals.]

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[ When Nicky was caught up in passion like this Booker almost couldn't breathe he looked so good. ]

Yeah, babe. We can do that.

[ Booker licked his lips and kissed Nicky before he lifted off his body. He glanced back at the door to make sure it was still closed and locked. Yup. They were good.

He moved towards the headboard of the bed, propped some pillows up and leaned back. Even though he had more experience than Nicky he still felt a little flutter of nerves in his stomach. Sex mattered when it was with Nicky. ]

Do you want me to undress or do you want to do it?

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[Booker shifted and Nicky shifted, too, scooting down and to the side so he could sit up without getting tangled in the other boy. They'd figured out in Malta that they were all still mostly limbs and it was insanely easy to catch someone's leg with an elbow and spill everyone from the bed.

And that had been a much bigger bed.

Once Booker was settled, Nicky reached out to run his fingers over his boyfriend's stomach.]

Go ahead and take them off for me? I work best when I study one subject at a time.

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You are brilliant all the time.

[ But Booker listened to his boyfriend's request. He lifted his hips and pushed his boxers down his thighs. Careful not to kick Nicky he got them off completely and dropped them off the edge of the bed.

His cock was mostly soft. A little rubbing had started him going but not fully yet. He was all Nicky's to play with. ]

Don't worry. You can't screw this up, I promise.

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[His eyes followed Booker's movements and as soon as the other boy was naked and resettled against the pillows, he was scooting forward so that he could kiss him again.]

You are beautiful.

[Another kiss, and this time Nicky's hand slipped up along Booker's side. He kept it slow and languid, the exact opposite of the frenzied pace that Malta had set.]

I want very much to make you feel good.

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[ Booker blushed a little. He still wasn't used to such easy and genuine praise even though Joe had been working on that too. ]

You do. Any touch feels good from you Nicky.

[ The slower pace made him very aware of Nicky's hand and body and everything. There wasn't any frantic grabbing or biting teeth to distract him from it. It heightened this. ]

You want me to let you do your thing? And not try to touch you back? No, wait, that sounds bad. Touch you like try and get you off too. Until you're done with me.

[ Because there would be something in return. Booker refused to let Nicky give him all the pleasure alone. ]

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[Finally, someone other than Nicky blushing. He smiled, shaking his head a little as he dipped down to trail kisses along Booker's throat.]

You can touch me any time you like.

[He'd particularly loved Booker's hands in his hair, actually. He just wasn't quite confident enough just yet to say it out loud. Instead, he started working a spot on his boyfriend's collarbone, just to see if he could cause an intentional hickey or if he could only manage it when he was half out of his head from Joe's hands on him.

And while he did that, his hand drifted a little higher until he could trail the pad of his thumb over Booker's nipple. Was he sensitive there? Did he like it? Joe did, but he couldn't remember if he'd gotten to try it on Booker or not.]

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[ He let his head fall back basically offering his throat for any sort of hickey or bruise Nicky wanted to leave behind. ]

Okay.

[ The touch sent a little shiver through Booker but it was more a sensation instead of sensitive like Joe.

Booker clutched the blankets in one hand and tangled the other in Nicky's hair for a moment before pushing it down the back of his neck. He pet along his shoulders under his shirt.

Nicky's mouth against his collarbone did more for him making him groan softly and his dick twitch in his lap. He loved it when the boys were possessive over him. ]