To think that he had caused his husband such sorrow was a painful thing and Nicolo pressed their foreheads together, willing the man to feel through his skin how much he loved him. How much he wanted to spend the rest of his life, however long that might be, with Yusuf.
"I've been thinking about it for a few weeks now. Renouncing doesn't mean I'm any less devout, just that I'd no longer hold a position in the church itself. I've barely said Mass in years, so losing that isn't as much of a fear for me as I thought it would be.
"I've struggled with it, so I didn't want to tell you until I was sure. I didn't want to get your hopes up, only to decide that I couldn't leave. But Father Giorgio and I spoke at great length today and...and I did it. I renounced my priesthood."
Bringing Yusuf's head up to look at him, he didn't even try to hide the tears in his eyes. "You thought I'd leave you? Yusuf, that is a worry you should never have." He pressed forward, putting Yusuf's ear against his chest so that the other man could hear his heartbeat.
"Do you hear that? That is the other half of your heart, Yusuf al-Kaysani, and it beats only for you."
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Date: 2020-08-15 04:24 am (UTC)"I've been thinking about it for a few weeks now. Renouncing doesn't mean I'm any less devout, just that I'd no longer hold a position in the church itself. I've barely said Mass in years, so losing that isn't as much of a fear for me as I thought it would be.
"I've struggled with it, so I didn't want to tell you until I was sure. I didn't want to get your hopes up, only to decide that I couldn't leave. But Father Giorgio and I spoke at great length today and...and I did it. I renounced my priesthood."
Bringing Yusuf's head up to look at him, he didn't even try to hide the tears in his eyes. "You thought I'd leave you? Yusuf, that is a worry you should never have." He pressed forward, putting Yusuf's ear against his chest so that the other man could hear his heartbeat.
"Do you hear that? That is the other half of your heart, Yusuf al-Kaysani, and it beats only for you."