His smirk was bitter sweet and he took another swig from his bottle before he pointedly set it down on the floor next to him so that it wouldn't be quite so easy for him to just absently drink because it was in his hands.

"One day I will leave this world and on that day I will leave Yusuf at the Gates as I fall. And it will be for many, many reasons. Not just who's cock has been inside me."

He was quiet for a moment, picking absently at the seam of the upholstery.

"I've done things that would make you hate me, Sebastien. Things that, if you knew them, you'd weigh me down and throw me in the ocean yourself."